`Friday, September 17, 2004;__
Skool SUCKZ too!
After the 1 week of holiday, today finally return to sch! but it was so damn bored... i guess i really cant live without him! i jus cant! i didnt tok to him for so many days! but do u think he cares? well i guess he probably dun give a fucking shitt! he dun care at all. i tried to call him but he seems advoiding from me! y must he do tt? I DONT KNOW! i cant imagine myself living in this world filled black & white! is so meaningless! is sucha a JOYLESS LIFE! i dun wish to have this feelings but right now i'm havin these thoughts! return to sch i tot it wud be better to me coz i wudnt think too much abt those stuff but is jus so wrong! i called him during recess & asked him wads happenin & y is tt tt he is advoidin me but he said he is not! de didnt advoid me! i'm so confussed so heartbroken so sad so disappointed & yet i still choose to believe him!
i jus dun have the guts to face the fact! i wud rather i didnt know anything & jus continue goin on but i jus cant!
*\\confussed,heartbroken,sad&disappointed//*
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 11:25 AM;__